Surgery...running from a dark cloud

A 20 minute procedure turned into a 3 hour surgery.  I have been in bed for 5 days now due to a mass found in a very private place.  I am trying to remain positive and not get into a dark cloud. But......it is hard to not get in that dark place when you got nowhere to go! 

I worry about my health, my family and my kids at school.  I sure wouldn't be able to recover without hubby, my three wonderful kids and the family I have at work.  I cry whenever I think about how much I am loved!  I am a lucky girl.

So what do I do now?  Back to the same old question, but now I have new circumstances.  I have truly enjoyed spending time on Pinterest and searching through other peoples' blogs.  So ....the blogging is at the right time for me.  I think I have alot to share...and writing has always been healing for me.  No more wondering about where this is going.  It's going to keep me out of that "dark cloud"  that I worry about.

 

Mental vs. Physical Health

It's day two of my "official" spring break.  I am mentally relaxed and feeling so calm. I know that this feeling is short lived.  But, physically I am wiped out.  This infection has now become a need for surgery.  Yikes!  It won't be fun, but it has got to be better. I feel rather unusual...and I guess special.  I am the second woman to have this surgery for my ob/gyn in 30 years!  Aren't I the lucky one!  Oh, well.  Ce la vie!

Now What?

So I've made the initial commitment to blog.  NOW WHAT?


Today is the first official day of my spring break. (big sigh of relief)  Teaching in an urban elementary school, with 26 fifth graders, is not easy.  Let alone the pressure to perform on the state assessments in April ..the demands from central office are changing daily and increasingly more specific.  I have two master's degrees and have been teaching for 25 years.  I know the research.  I know student performance is extremely important.  But.....stop the pressure.  I want my students to succeed just as much as you do! [RANT IS OVER FOR NOW]


Iced coffee and grade cards are the focus now....... Plus texting a friend getting on a cruise ship for the first time. (yes, I am very jealous). Pinterest is also a great time consumer!  I am getting alot of ideas for next year...and the remainder of this year.  I will amaze myself if I use one fourth of the material that I have collected. That's me....a hoarder of ideas, books, Bath and Body Works and friends!  Ha!


Now what? Guess I better get back to work.

Why? Why not?

The thought of having a blog has been in the back of my head for a long time.  It may be a chance for me to reflect and make sense of this crazy life I have.  I love my life.  It is filled with my best friend and husband, my children, family, friends, students and every random soul I come in contact. So the place to think, share, create and even rant about my time with others is exciting and renewing. What will this become?  I don't know....and really don't care!  It is an experiment with the power of the written word, my thinking and just puttin' it out there. We'll see how this experiment evolves......


So..where do I start?


It's a rainy day in Missouri.  I have spent most of my Sunday playing on the computer.  I have either been completing grade cards, pinning on Pinterest or working on this.  I love the days when I can drink an iced coffee, watch crazy people on reality tv shows and search the web.  It's not much that makes me happy...especially on a rainy day during Spring Break.  I don't have a plan for today.  However, I do have a plan for the rest of my week.  LOL  I rarely have moments without a plan.